Rice Bunnies ✈



Hello am Rice Bunnies and this in my personal blog. I keep all of my personal life in this blog. Let say am a sweettypicalgoodygirl in a small town. Just has her side who wants to hide from. Who wants a blog that no one knows of, like a place write down my life down without no comments. The place I can call my own. I mean am so tired & sick of people keep on misjudging me. And other people reading through my personal life. I just want a place I can keep my word and not speak of it. To write down all mythoughts, like a sketchbook of my life. Like telling a story in a book about your life without speaking of it. To poor down my deepest feeling, thoughts, and memories. All the badandgoodtimes I had in my life. What my fantasy are and I want to happen in my life like I am princess waiting for my prince charming. Like water stars falling down from the sky.- Rice Bunnies.
The Enchanted Castle.

Goal in life: To meet my Prince Charming.

Sunset on the beach.
Some Of My Passion

Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart

Bopeep&Woody. ♥ My Childhood memories.

Tsunenori "Close Your Eyes (feat Azzie)".Mp3

Twin&I little secret.

3rd May 2010

Let’s play pretend.

These days I been still quiet underneath and sure I may seems fine but am not. I spend time with my new best friends a whole lot these days and still don’t don’t feel any better. The only thing is giving a lot of time with them keeps me away from home from thinking a lot. When I get home I feel empty inside again and all I can do is lay in my cradle. I honestly trying to fight this feeling but it won’t quit. I know identify that some people around me cares for me, but inside like a heavy weight is in my heart.  I just blank out when I was with my beloved friends and I didn’t mean too. It just suffocates me inside to see the people around me seeing me like this so I all can do is play pretend to them. Some of my heart feels left out from the world out there.  Like am not existed in their own world.  The other day I cried myself to sleep and crying didn’t work making feel any better. I wanna keep people around me happy so I smile with to but pretending am happy with them. I dislike vetting on them, it does give waves to others, and I know I don’t mean to, so I breakoff of that.

I’ve been eating myself off when am depressed like this. Like a bucket of ice cream I finish.  I swear I think I may get fat soon. But guess what happen eating out these day got me sick, but am fine I think.  Like yesterday in the morning I was clearing out my throat when I found blood in the sink I think its okay just a little blood but by the night while showering cleaning my nose I found blood in my hands I rush out and found I am bleeding from my nose. I overdo my thinking and watch too much Korean drama worried. So I just stand there all froze up and shaking, while the blood still rushing down. But I am fine now I think. But still things keep on consistently of thinking of stuff.  I can’t believe it I am in this long depression of mine. Today I wanted to sleep the whole day without waken from my reality I am in, just dreaming into my fantasy. I wish I can be sleeping beauty I can escape this world of mine.

I wished it rain more because all I can see is sunshine on my window and I don’t like it. Well not in the moment of time. I feel like going to beach when there’s a stormy weather and I don’t care its cold because that’s how my heart feels like lately.  COLD and Crumble like. I feel some parts of my heart feels crushed and I don’t know how to put it all into pieces. Well that’s all inside thoughts for the days that had went by. 

- Love you always ♥ Rice Bunnies ✈ ♥